My Last Days: The Movies Finaly Out

We’ve been talking about this for quite some time and, well, the movie is finally finished! It’s an exciting moment for my family and I as we are able to share a piece of our story, a piece of our journey with you. All along the way whether it was through this blog, through our speaking engagements, over cups of excellent Vancouver coffee, or in some other format we have made every attempt to share our story with you because we believe that something spectacular is happening. Despite the pain and misery of it all, despite the reality of whether I live or die, despite all these things we have made the conscious choice to be foolish enough to believe that a beautiful story is and can be told in this mess. And if I were to be perfectly honest, this beautiful story has become more and more difficult to own as it has become more and more painful to live out. (as a side note, to follow the story as it has unfolded you can see those blogs here) The more the pain has grown the less accessible the story has been to share with the general public. Regardless, thanks to the creative’s over at Soul Pancake our story is now being told in its most well done version. Oh the irony!

So please watch this (irony and all), pass this on to anyone and everyone you know. The goal is for this video to go viral not for its own sake but for the sake of the greater story being told: that there is life in death! That death is not the end! That there are more stories out there that need must be told! So share, re-post, blog about it, facebook it, tweet it, email it, do what it is you do with youtube videos and spread the word! Who knows? Maybe…just maybe…we can get something goin’ here! Maybe…just maybe…we can together start some kind of movement–one of love, of sharing, and of life.


49 thoughts on “My Last Days: The Movies Finaly Out

  1. Came across your story on Rainn Wilson's facebook page. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so touched and inspired. I will send you a video of what as a family will do to celebrate life, God, community and love. So much about your story resonates with us. We did inner city ministry for many years and did community development type stuff. I have spent the evening going over your blog posts and just thank God for you and your ministry.
    I am very curious to know when you were in Lubbock. When I saw photos of you and Jess as teenagers I had this crazy notion that I knew you. I lived in Lubbock 1988-1993. I was very involved in the Wesley Student foundation and did some associate youth pastoring at some of the local Methodist Church's . I'm just being a little crazy…but I can't help but think I might have meet you. I am probably getting you confused with another guy named Ryan.
    Anyway, you have many important things to focus on like your life, your wife and kiddos. Don't worry about responding.
    Again, my prayers are with you and thanks for sharing this message of hope.
    Marti Miers Mefford

  2. What a beautiful family~ Support System~ Person you are. Thank you for sharing your hearts in this! Amazing!!! I just want to say that we certainly do all have our story to play out until the day we die. It is important to hold the right frame of mind in everything as our entire being generally believes what we are telling it! You mentioned in your video, no cancer in your family…. and you did everything you are supposed to do to be healthy. We do have a healing balm within that can become unlocked with the right internal conditions, the right mindset…. you could heal and I believe it with all my heart~ Nothing much special to buy, just a simple tried and true health plan that has saved many given mere moments to live,,, please check into the Gerson therapy, the documentary or website are good places to start… you can do it from home with your beautiful family! I have really researched cancer… hundreds of hours, please email me if you like … praying for you Ryan and family!!

  3. came across your story on reddit, assumed you'd live 1000 miles away, instead you're less than 10. talk about a small world. we'll be thinking about you guys.
    – tyler, brush prairie, wa

  4. Praying for you and your family (and your project). Amazing story. Wonderful vision. Great Project. Quality video. Death is not the end. May the LORD bless you and keep you; and make his face to shine on you; and be gracious. I truly hope your story continues to have lasting impact here on this world in this time.

  5. I am a new person this morning because of this. Will you all ever know what you've done for this world? Will you know the change you have sparked within people? My children's lives will be even fuller today and all the days of their lives because of you, your wife, and your two precious little ones.

    I do hope you embarrass yourself and feel SO INCREDIBLY awkward in the years to come when we're sitting around drinking coffee talking about all the fuss you made and all the lives you changed so long ago :)

  6. there are no random acts……. I typed the words into google and now it seems I am a breeze in your wind…… thank you for sharing your story – RDC suffolk england

  7. I watched the video, it's great that you are so positive. I was happy that you didn't mention god in it, until I saw here that you are do believe. I was surprised, because i think at this time I thought you would be enlightened to the complexities of us and our world, and that a humanised god has nothing to do with it. Otherwise why would you have this disease? It's proof not of god but that we are self created. You are intelligent, and you should see now the wider picture, and that yes we are born to die liek you said, so why waste your energy on old stories, and instead promote the truth, that is real, that we can't be saved and that prayers dont matter, all that matters is that we live every day like its our last, because anything can happen, and we have no one to answer to but ourselves and our loved ones.

    I hope that you live, but I don't 'pray' or hope god saves you. But I just hope.

  8. You and your family inspire me to live well and (don't take this in a weird way) to die well. This year for me has been one of my most difficult but every time I am tempted to brood about it I remember the lessons I am being taught me by follwing your incredible story. My only connection bringing me to your story is that I barely know your father, Kevin (having assembled a couple of playgrounds with him in Mexico) and yet you have been to me the strong mentoring force in my life for most of this year. If I never meet you until the other side, please know that my wife and I are resolved to honor your appeal for to bring love into our community. Your family always are and will be in my prayers.

  9. It was a beautiful video. I shared before even seeing this call to do so. Thank you for reminding me to not take for granted all these beautiful moments that I have been given with my family. Thank you so much for sharing your story and I hope that your story continues for a long long time. Praying for your family.

  10. I lurking in the shadows of your blog since my husband, Corbin, heard you speak at a men's retreat this past spring. I had to de-lurk just to say that this video is amazing. Powerful. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey so openly and inspiring us all to live our lives in a way that draws others in and points them to Jesus.

  11. Ryan, as I have said before, THANK YOU for sharing your story with the world. And for shining the light of Truth. You are an inspiration. I'm sure people will comment about your belief in Jesus, but I cannot imagine facing death without that hope. Hold to that hope Ryan and Jess as I know you do. God bless you as you share your story with the world.
    Also in the video you ask us to share what we are doing to spread the joy and the good will. It's small really, but three days a week a friend of mine drops her kids off to me to watch while she goes to work. I know it's hard for her because she wants to stay home with them. I've started making her a latte with my espresso press. I hope it makes her mornings just a little bit easier.
    Love to you my friend… <3

  12. Ryan, I felt lead by the Lord to write this to you. Prepare yourself. Don't limit God for He doesn't limit you. So here you go: "Ryan, this is not the end but the beginning of something new. For I have called you by name to fulfill my purpose and My Word will not return unto Me void. Know that I hear you as you cry out to Me in silence, I see your tears. But TRUST Me son, for I have not left your side. I AM the the God that healeth thee. Continue to walk with me, raise your level of expectancy and allow me to be the God of the impossible. "

  13. I love when you said "the doctors say I have one to four months to live but I think I have more. ". It made me cry. You are extraordinary people in so many ways. Thank you for being so transparent. It is painfully wonderful!

  14. A beautiful family and a beautiful story. You've chosen to meet death gracefully and help your family do the same. Sending love & prayers from Dalton Massachusetts (( we've also accepted your challenge to connect to our community! I'll post again )) God bless!

  15. I have only known one other person dx with Gliobblastoma. That Person was my Father-He passed in 1983-63yrs young. Your story matches my Fathers,WHat a Christian Spiritual warrior he was. My mother encouraged him to use his voice thru song -he shared his most phenomenal voice for over 30yrs-then it went silent-but his Love of God-Family was always present. He told us "don't cry" . The minister from the church of christ in Midwest City ,Ok.stated "Well done -a crown of Righeousness awaits you". A prince has just been crowned. I truly believe you have a Left a phenomenal christian Legacy for your family. My prayers are with you and your Family.
    He gave Me a song -OH Praise His Name He is my King -A wonderful song it is to me. How Beautiful Heaven must be.

  16. Hi Ryan (and family!). I first found your blog back with the Love Bomb team and have checked in from time to time. I've been away from internet some and have missed some updates, and just came back to catch up. I started watching your video, and I started crying. Your family is so beautiful and the love that you have is so beautiful and I really honestly don't understand how you have no fear of death, but I've got to tell you, that's beautiful too. I have tons of health problems, and I've had cancer before, but I'm not dying. Not at the moment, anyway. Thousands of dollars of medical bills each month, more tests, discussions of more surgeries, but nothing more serious, so death is just something that lurks in my own mind, not something that crosses the lips of my doctors or family, who are either too convinced that eventually they'll find the cause or that my mid-20's is too young. But it's still something I think about. And it still freaks me out. In fact, I try to avoid thinking of death as anything beyond a construct – decisions about when to stop having tests and treatments – never really able to face thoughts of actually not living here with the people and places I know and love or ever being anywhere else either. I don't know how you do it. But know that I have immense respect for you (and your family) as you go through this. I love that your video is about encouraging others to love. I hope that love really can cure the world's evils. Know that you are in my thoughts as you go forward. And thank you for sharing a small bit of your journey on your blog. I'm not sure that not fearing death is ever a place that I will get to, but it is certainly something I can admire in you as you follow your journey. Blessings and peace.

  17. I started off trying to convey how much you moved me, how much I relate to what you're going through, what your family is facing as well. I can't bring myself to explain anything of my understanding to you, because what you're facing is so terrifying and heart breaking. I will just simply say that I am in honest heartfelt prayer for you, for your heart, for your beautiful wife, your adorable kids, and for what (seems to be) hordes of loving people surrounding you. You are an example of how to live and I get the feeling that even without going through what you are, you would still be a wonderful example of how to love and live. Thank you for your Godly example. If or when the Lord calls you home I know that heaven will be rejoicing.

    I thought of this verse and I hope it may be a comfort:

    Philippians 3:20-21 But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself.

  18. Hi Ryan,

    Your story is incredibly moving. Thank you so much for sharing it so honestly and fearlessly. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I have a quick question about your blog, would you mind emailing me when you get a chance?



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